My names Janna, I'm 25, grey/blue eyes and I'm in a good relationship and trying desperately to conceive.
@indymakesthree I miss you more than you know
I’m sorry I was pig-headed. I guess I just get jealous sometimes because you have everything I want.
I miss you and I love you and your lil family.
I don’t even have the words to say to that
Way too hurt to even think.
For all his shortcomings Victor is an AMAZING person and I’d rather one of him than a million of anyone else.
I’m sorry for all of you who disapprove but don’t worry, I won’t be there to whinge to you if what you predict comes true.
I love you and your little family, looking at your kids is half the reason I want one of my own and one day I will have one and I’ll do my best to be the kind of mum that you are to yours, loving, fun and fair.
Until then, I’m sorry it has to be this way but I’ve been though far too much this year already, I don’t need negativity about the one thing that’s been a constant in my life.
Just delete my Tumblr
I absolutely love seeing my mate Jess’ pics of her girls but other than looking at those I’m rarely on here.
I’m really happy with where i am in life right now, aside from the fact that I’m trying (and failing) to fall pregnant, I’m happy. I have a boyfriend who adores me, a family that I don’t see often enough but I love them and I have some amazing friends who I know would support me no matter what.
There’s a few out there who I think disapprove of me wanting to be a mum to Victor’s child which hurts me, but I guess they think they have my best interests at heart.
But I dunno, I feel like what my mum always said is true, if you’ve got nothing nice to say then don’t say anything at all. I don’t need people telling me negative shit about the guy i love when I’m already feeling shit coz I can’t seem to do something that every other girl around me seems to have no problem doing.
I’ve been through far too much in the past year to let other peoples attitudes bring me down, especially people who have no idea how much I’ve been through.
I dunno, maybe I’m not happy after all. With the exception of Victor, my kitten and my mates Rachael-Nadine and Alita I just feel like I have no friends anymore. I guess it’s my fault, I let friendships disintegrate, but it doesn’t make it hurt any less knowing that it’s my own stupid fault. I’ve always been the type to throw myself into relationships and I seem to forget all my mates. But I guess it’s coz I have the faith that they’ll always be there regardless of whether we get to chill regularly or whatever. Maybe I can’t just rely on friendships to just be there? Maybe I’m supposed to make heaps of effort n stuff? I dunno. I always thought mates are the people who are there forever no matter what. I have girls I’ve not spoken to in months but if they needed me i’d be there to listen and I used to think it worked both ways.
I’m very split minded today. I think it’s stress coz of last nights test revealing that I’m not pregnant despite the constant nausea and my periods being 15 days late when I’ve never been more than 2 days late. I truly thought I was gonna be a mum this time, it crushed me seeing just one line. Alita n Angie say to go to a dr and get a blood test but I don’t think I want it confirmed that I’m not pregnant, it hurt enough seeing it last night.
I don’t expect anyone to sympathize or even care really, this post has been more about me reflecting. I might keep Tumblr after all, if only to vent.
Janna xx
My periods are 5 days late and I’m praying it’s because I’m pregnant but it’s probably just cos I’ve miscalculated or I’m having an odd cycle
#iwantababy!
I miss having long hair, Thank god for Hair extensions.
I wish I looked half as good as this yummy mummy
To anyone who actually misses me
I’ve been a bit lax in communicating lately coz of moving house, and I’ve been a bit unwell lately also. People are suggesting pregnancy which gets me a bit too excited! But it’s probably just dehydration or something boring like that.
We are trying for a baby but apparently it can take a while for some couples so I guess we just hafta keep practicing haha.
Anyway it’s our first night in our new place, there’s still a fair bit to do but hopefully we’ll put our touch on it soon enough.
X
So
I’ve FINALLY met the guy I believe I’m spending the rest of my life with. It’s only been 5 months but I’m crazy about him.
We signed a lease today and we move next week
And we’re thinking about starting a family.
I know I know, it’s early days but I’m not getting any younger and Victor is keen to have a family with me.
I won’t lie, I’m petrified I won’t be able to conceive because of my past cervical problems but we will deal with that if/when it happens.
If need be I have a friend who said she’d surrogate for us or we could adopt.
I just want to be able to raise a child with the man I love.
Things are FINALLY looking up for me after years of misery
She thinks she’s a rabbit
